And so it all changes ... Again.

One thing that becomes clear during an international adoption is that things change constantly. This has been an interesting week. A few days ago, my fellow mama blanc emailed me a bunch of pictures and video from her trip to Haiti last week. I had worked 4-4 that night and could not wait to get home to see the videos of Gracie. I opened the video and here she was, swaying to some music, trying to clap her hands, simply lost in the sounds. She smiled big and I just knew she was that little princess my pharmacist/musician husband would truly treasure. Me too, but he loves music so much that seeing this was simply moving. I watched it through a couple of times. Along about the third viewing I began to notice a few things. First, children I knew who were three and four were walking around near my dancing queen. The thing was, they were twice her size. How small is she? I wondered. Then, I noticed she was in diapers. That too was very odd for Haiti. They were usually potty trained long before the age of four if for no other reason than economics. Diapers are expensive.

I had a tough time sleeping despite working all night. This did not add up. I said something to Tim and we agreed... Time to ask some questions. I zipped off an email to Rachel and nervously waited all day for an answer. It finally came late Wednesday. Rachel had told me the wrong birth year. She was born in 09!!! She just turned two. A mere 15 months older than Alex. We were thrilled. She was not small or having issues, she is a toddler! We have had to switch some gears in our thinking, but happily so.

Today, I consulted Zachary again on his feelings about sharing mommy. I told him we can still have our weekly date nights like we do now. He asked,"but where will the babies be?". I told him they could stay with daddy. He frowned and said,"no. Mama you have three babies now and we need to bring them, or it won't be any fun." once again, my genius six year old has reminded me of the greatness of God's gifts to us.