A wall of bubbles

Every now and then I think God tries very hard to remind me about some of life's better things. Through my discouragement lately ov a multitude of things I have continued on my fast and prayer. This is now week three. Again it seemed I was not getting much in the way of answers. Then, some answers came from the most likely source. It was Zachary. On the way to school I was admittedly grumpy. I have worked many shifts this week and work all night tonight. We dropped the teen off and were on our way to the elementary school when Zachary, age 6, began asking me about the "soda drinking hat.". As he described it I realized he was talking about those silly hats that hold two cans of soda with a straw to your mouth. I have no idea how he knew what it was but he did. He talked about blowing bubbles with that straw. "I could make a whole wall of bubbles to run through!" he then asked if I would hold his hand and run through with him. The visual of he and I doing this carried me through the day. I smile even now as I think about it. It reminded me how Zachary's adoption made no sense. Our kids were older and moving on, we were secure in our careers. I guess we have given stuff up to have him, but to have him want to run through bubbles with me reminded why he is here. It renewed my excitement to see what Nate has in store for us.

Later, Zachqry reminded me of something else. He was talking about death. He is a curious boy, not morbid, just curious. He asked,"so, you to through all your years then you get old and you have finally made it." he smiled as he said that. I asked what he meant and he said,"you finally get to be with God." He somehow knows this is the most amazing thing. He was fearless and excited. It reminded me again, this is how it should be. Doing things that honor and glorify God and not worry so much. Again, I firmly believe this is Zachary's sole purpose, to teach me. In the end he went back to his wall of bubbles. He had decided we needed to be patient and wait for Nate to make our wall, because it would be more fun with him. Somehow I think he is right.